So I’ve realized that what I’ve been posting has been harsh. It’s been deep and emotional. I’ve revealed parts of me that I’ve hidden from everyone. My friends and family have been reading it. They are starting realizing that there’s more to me than meets the eye. They have seen things that they’d never expect. I’m sorry, I think ya’ll misunderstand what I’m doing here. I am dealing with depression, pressure, and stress. I’ve got a lot on my mind, but it’s okay. I started this blog and started slow and then realized that this isn’t working for me. I needed a release and to blow off some steam. I had to get out what was inside before what was inside got me. So I changed the game and started saying what I’m dealing with. I’m writing what I’m feeling and what I’m going through. I’m not trying to ask for help or get sympathy, although I love the encouragement. God’s got me, and I know it. The stuff I’m writing may be new to ya’ll, but this has been my life since before I can remember it. This is God’s gift to me. To be able to write what I’m feeling, and to put into words my emotions. These things inside my head are things I deal with and conquer daily. I may be fighting daily, but I’m winning every battle. I’ve got God, friends, and family on my side. I may seem like I’m struggling, but I’m far from it. This is just my passion and release. I’m sharing what I’m dealing with. I’m sharing the darkest side of me. Anyone can tell a happy story, but life isn’t all unicorns and rainbows. We all go through pain and hurt; stress and struggles. But it’s how we get up and move on despite our falls. So for all of you who see the pain and hurt I’m going through it’s okay. I’m okay. This is only making me stronger. I may share some dark, depressing stuff, but it’s so that ya’ll know you aren’t alone. There are people out here who feel just like you and think just like you. I know the pain of not being understood and not knowing if anyone thinks the same way you do. So that’s why I’m here and now. I’m using God’s gift He gave me to write what I think, feel, and experience. I’m here to say what other people are afraid to say or admit. The things some of us keep inside and hide. I’m doing this for all you people who put on a mask and a fake smile to get through each day. You are not alone. I’m here to let you know that since I can make it through all this, you can make it too. But this is also a way for me to release. I can get out my feelings and emotions. My pain, frustration, and stress. And at the same time, I can help encourage all of you who deal with the same things. We are in this together. I just wanted ya’ll to know all this stuff I’m saying is stuff I’m conquering. I’m in a battle, but it’s a battle I’m winning. This is my release and my passion. This is my victory.
~~~ INFJ Mickey