You know I may post a lot of deep stuff that isn’t super happy, but I’m not all doom and gloomy. I’ve got dreams and goals. I have visions and ideas I want to do. I am a dreamer, and I spend a lot of my time planning and predicting the future. It’s fun, and I enjoy it. Combined with my analytical self, I come up with some crazy dreams that are possible. I do the math and plan out my finances years in advance for several different scenarios. I dream of things I want to happen and things that might occur. I make my dreams where I combine reality and my goals. I’m analytical, so I’m able to put logic behind my vision and plan it out to put it into effect. Now you may wonder what my dreams and goals are. Well, tbh there aren’t many. I’m a simple guy with a simple dream. I have several things I want to do, but they all tie into one goal. I want a family. That’s what I want more than anything. So most of my dreams are of me getting a family or me interacting with my family. For example, here is one of my thoughts I’ve had for a long time.
I see my wife standing at the stove, cooking a meal. She’s intently focused on it and doesn’t see me sneaking up behind her. So I sneak up behind her, and I wrap my arms around her and pull her close. I kiss her neck and whisper in her ear, “I love you more than anything.” And as I’m holding her close against me, she lays her head back and closes her eyes, enjoying the moment as much as I am. She stops stirring to pull my arms tighter around her so I can’t let go. And if you looked on at us, you’d see the happiest couple you’d ever seen with both of us smiling bigger than you’d ever seen. And as I’m standing there holding my wife, I hear the soft footsteps of children running. They round the corner and run straight to their mother and me. The run-up to me and grab on to my legs laughing. They are so happy, and as I let go of my wife and pick up my small child, all I see is joy in their faces. A happiness that can’t be extinguished. My wife goes back to stirring as I grab both my kids, one in each arm. I tickle them both till there are tears in their eyes from laughing so hard. The beg me to stop even though they love it. Then after I’ve had my fun of messing with them, I hug them tight. They hug me back and tell me, “I love you,” and my heart melts. My wife tells our kids to go and wash their hands, and as they run off, I turn back to my wife. She’s finished cooking and turn to me, and we share an intimate kiss. Then I stare into her eyes and bring our noses and foreheads together. Still holding her gaze, I tell her, “Thank you. Thank you for making my dream come true. You are what I’ve been praying for my whole life for.” While I tell her that I see tears well up in her eyes because of how happy she is to know that she is loved, wanted, and appreciated. And as she starts to cry from overflowing joy, I hug her. As I hug her, I think about the moment and cherish it, because it is my dream that I have waited so long for.
You see, I have many happy thoughts too. I’m not all depression. I love those kinds of dreams. It’s what I’m shooting for. It’s what I’m praying for and want more than anything. To be able to make those kinds of memories with someone and share my life and dream with them. I can’t wait; I’m so excited. But I’m not just a dreamer. I’m analytical. I want to do everything I possibly can to make these dreams a reality. So I’m continually planning things out. Thinking and planning on what will get me closer to making my dream a reality. Doing the math on how much my income would be if I got this job and paid off these things. It may sound silly but I’ve done lots of research on how much engagement rings, wedding rings, weddings, honeymoon, buying a house, building a home, and many more things would cost. I’ve planned out the next 10-15 years before on what I need to do and when. I’ve thought about what I can and need to do to make sure I can provide the very best for my future wife. I’ve got many dreams and plans I want to share with her. I’ve got so many awesome things I want to do, but I have to plan ahead of time. I want to be able to treat her like a queen. But in order to be able to do that I have to make sure I’m being wise with what I have right now. I may be a bit obsessive, but I don’t care. That is my dream, and I can’t wait for it. I’ve planned my future out way farther than people realize. I’m always thinking about and planning for that day! Because on that day, I will be the happiest guy on this planet!
Thanks so much for reading! I hope you all enjoyed reading something positive for once! I’d love to hear what ya’lls dreams are, so leave a comment below! I hope you all have a blessed day! Till next time. Peace and God Bless!!
~~~ INFJ Mickey